Sick

Dunno how ive coped this month and i havent, im mad livid angry and stressed once again. Just lost HU for a $5000 package (no more dtls as good promo and i aint advertising it). was 24k vs 38k at start and chipped away into a level chip situation. Lost bit back and then doubled AA vs AJ on a Jxx board to go 52k vs 10k. Nxt hand i split A9 vs QJ to win board KKQQK allin preflop but then matey is on big tilt and gets aggressive after playing as passive as they come. He gets back in to 20k or so with me missing countless flops and cheap draws before he calls a raise with 82std and manages to bust my AA on a K22 flop. Get 1 or 2 pots back and its 24k vs 38k when i raise with A5 flop betted and turn read A256 and all the money goes in for him to show 34off and bust me, what a joke and pretty much sums up my mood, my month and pretty much everything else at the moment. Worst thing about it is i have rest of day to moan about it and i cant see my head being right for few or maybe any of the decent sunday games. Bring on September and fast !

update 40mins later:

so mad needed to do something to let it out, dcided on 2 mile jog flat out as fast as i could go. probably was faster ive eva run it and was in sweltering heat and fortunately it seems to have worked. no longer as mad but extremely gutted all the same but i know i played near perfect and it just wasnt meant to be like so many things this month in poker, ah well we see how nxt 2 hrs go b4 dcide on ne evening games either way but need 100% focus or i only play 0-2..